If you’re like me you probably got damn shares in headaches

I’ve learned to never crawl out of bed just to crawl back in. 
I’m talking your head, your heart, your work,
it just doesn’t do to lock yourself up. 
Because your darkest space can be as bright as the floor of the sun with a lantern, or the LED backlight of a cell phone in the palm of a good friend.
But we all know a good friend gets you through those bad times. 
How about something new. 
Don’t tell me that the only way to get through something
is through somebody else.
What about the loners.
Stuck all up in our own heads like model glue.
Buzzing all night and sleeping all day.  
What of us?
You are your own customer care help line without the waiting time.
You are your own bolt and spanner just as you are your own spanner in the works.
What I’m saying is, you will always be there for you,
whether they’re 2am empty glass bottle problems
or 4pm dumped on the front gutter after class problems.  
I have dog trained myself to find happiness in waking up to the glow of obscure music videos on ABC1 (or 2 or 3, whatever),
the half jokes of the low budget props and sets warm me.
I find happiness in the lonely night roads of a usually busy Melbourne lane.
I find happiness in the short fuse of the spark you sometimes find in sad eyes. 
You know, that quick rush of happiness you sometimes feel
when you’re at your most unhappy.
Your low point.
That’s what I’m trying to spit up. 
Net that. Ball it in your palm. Keep that moment close to your heart.
Get addicted to each of those flashes
as they playfully skip and hide through your worst mood’s.
Because they’re real.
Laugh at life’s slopes and laugh harder when you stack. 
Because since time is only relative to our experience we are never and infinite all at once, and then you will realize,
that we are already too fixed to be broken.   

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